Over 1,000

1,095 to be exact. We’ve lived in Arizona now for over a thousand days and most of them great. Today marks the three year anniversary of loading up a Penske truck and driving our lives into the desert. Here are some of my favorite things about living here:

  • The people I have met. I am so grateful for the friendships so quickly cultivated here. They are already deeply rooted and treasured, like they were just waiting for me to arrive.
  • The cactus. I can name more kinds now than I ever knew existed and they are each indescribably beautiful in their own ways.
  • Sedona. It is my happy place, the place my spirit longs for, the minute I see those red rocks I feel my heart settle into a complimentary rhythm.
  • My dog Mango that I was finally able to get when we moved.
  • Tempe Town Lake and the plethera of things to do there.
  • The Phoenix Zoo and Papago Park.
  • World Wildlife Park and having dinner at Dillon’s with sharks.
  • The Herberger Theatre, for a multitude of reasons.
  • Driving to Ahwatukee to have Nikki do my hair.
  • P83 with the Ball Park and restaurants for days.
  • The proximity with which we are now available to both sets of parents and our aunt.
  • Having friends and family visit and exploring together.
  • Downtown Scottsdale.
  • The White Tanks and it’s trails.
  • The view of South Mountain on a clear day.
  • The view of the sun setting almost any day of the year.
  • Luke Air Force Base and the fighter jets that fly over regularly.
  • Our booth at the Brass Armadillo.
  • Creating a space for me to work on my spiritual journey complete with rattle, drum and sage.

While moving here was completely the right thing to do there are some things I miss still:

  • The smell of the theatre as I walk in the back door.
  • Seeing Jennifer every morning and sharing every detail of our lives together.
  • Messing with Colton and wondering where our bucket is and why he won’t try harder.
  • Hearing Jesse and Caleb’s laugh from the audience.
  • Mike Mechanick’s smile.
  • Yelling Tony’s name at the top of my lungs, for no reason at all.
  • Being able to see Laurie for our lunches and dinners.
  • Drunk Sundays with the worlds best neighbors.
  • Family dinners at Tom and Lori’s.
  • An only two and half hour drive to see Alex and Cory.
  • Driving to San Francisco just to have dinner and come back.
  • Being able to go to Napa, Sonoma and Calistoga for a day or a whole weekend to restock the wine frig.
  • New Year’s Eve parties and cast parties and birthday parties and every kind of party.
  • Writing or directing a show and seeing it come to life.
  • All my theatre kids.
  • Our volunteers who were more like family.
  • Being a short drive from everyplace I’ve gone to school or lived.
  • Knowing my favorite grocery stores and their layouts.

Now all this is not to say that I have traded one thing for the other. I don’t feel that way at all. I feel that there are times when our lives are outwardly, visibly in motion. Where we are seen and our impact is felt by many on a large scale. And then as the Wheel of Life portends, there are times when we retreat into a dormant, restorative phase. A phase of healing, incubation and ripening. I am blissfully a part of the later, but only for a time. I feel my phoenix rising and rebirth already begun. The desert is a beautiful place to be transformed.

Little Horse Trail

By Michelle Raskey

Traversing the path through your crests and curves
Stepping farther into your mystic land,
Watched by ancient ghosts.
At each crunch of my boot I shed
Layers of accumulated fabrics, growing smaller:
First mule deer, now coyote, next badger –
Until I disrobe completely, a snake.
Rusty red blood carries me and I
Slither across your rocks and truth.
My sacred pilgrimage complete I open my eyes,
Wet wings unfold,
I take flight and hunt.

The Little Horse Trail, Sedona, Arizona May 2020