Welcome to my blog. A blog about blergs? Sort of. First off, what is a “blerg” and why am I using the term in my title? The word blerg is, according to the urban dictionary:

Most commonly used in the same context as ‘oh damn’. Used to express frustration, anxiety, depression, etc. Occasionally the second syllable is prolonged…

(Occasionally? No, always.) Credit should be given to one of my idols, Tina Fey, on using the word in her show 30 Rock in which “blerg” was the go-to expression of irritation after you have stressed yourself to the point of speechlessness.  https://hellogiggles.com/reviews-coverage/tv-shows/words-that-30-rock-gave-us/

That is a perfect definition because to me “blerg” is an emotion. It’s a sigh, an exhale, or interjection. Sort of like the raspberries we learned to make as babies; words fail me, let me make a spit shower with my tongue. My best friend and I used to use this term at work before I moved to Arizona. When we felt stumped, stupified, or verklempt, rather than take an hour typing a long email explaining how an issue affected us, we’d just simply say “blerg.” Immediately, I knew exactly what she meant. We said it a lot.

I found myself at a personal point of “blerg” about a year ago. I knew something dramatic was shifting in me. I felt a pull in my heart but had no direction. A felt a need to change but happy with my current state. I had a restlessness with no calling. Anyone else ever felt that way? No, just me?

So began a journey which has brought me to our new home in Arizona. While I am sure that the term will retain some of it’s original definition – “insert blerg-blog on Arizona rush hour here” –  I think it has room to morph. This Arizona Blerg Blog is now also a term for emotions filled with hope, excitement, and maybe just a little fear of the unknown.  I can’t wait to discover as much as I can about myself while living here: in the red rocks of Arizona that already feel like home. I’d love to take you with me on the adventure. Here’s to our Blerg Blog!